my dear mr. roderick

i just had a horrifying experience.

i was just about to turn the water on in my shower to warm it up,
when i looked down i saw it there.
a teeny little spider.
(i hate spiders, hate hate hate hate them.)
i don't especially like taking the lives of innocent creatures.
so to prevent little mr. roderick (i had to name him something) from drowning from the spout of water above him or from being stepped on by my big feet,
i grabbed the lid to the shampoo bottle and tried to scoop him up to safety,
easier said than done.
first of all, he kept running away from me
second, he would roll in this little ball and roll off everytime i thought i had him.

i was getting flustered, all i want to do is take a stupid shower and go to bed,
how ignorant i was.
i quickly scooped him and and threw him on the back of the tub.
i checked to see if he was alright..
he wasn't..
i squished him.
i squished mr roderick by trying to get him to safety.

i would like to apologize to the family of mr. roderick, my intentions were good,
i promise.
and i will treat your kind more gently now
i'm very sorry for your loss.